My last couples of post have been about my struggles since returning from Africa. Mainly just questioning myself of how I was going to do missions and if it’s really what I am suppose to do, and so on. I feel in my heart I am called to missions. God confirmed that for me in Africa. Why was I questioning that? I had let everyday struggles slowly tear me from my calling. And no, I have not black slidin’ or committed some major sin. Not at all. I just let life bog me down, and the stresses and problems were making me question my call. I truly believe that God knew what was going on and decided to fix it. Three months in the making. All of this is so crazy to me because HE knew EXACTLY what I would be struggling with in the future, and started orchestrating something 3 months ahead of time. The Lord is so good.
I got a text message on October 3rd around 10:40pm asking “is this Brandi Young?” With a curious mind I replied “Yup”. I get a message back and it was a person I haven’t talked to in probably 6, 7 years. This person went on to tell me that they needed to talk to me. Worried, I said “sure. Is everything ok?” and she told me “yes.” This person and I never had the best past. To this day I still can’t tell you why we never got along, but sometimes I feel like God has funny ways of orchestrating things. My guess is this is one of those instances. J So I waited a little while and let my mind wander to all things this person could possibly need to talk to me about. My mind went from past dramas, to present happenings and I was just trying to figure how this person is connected to my present life, and I came up with nothing. So finally my phone rang. It started out with apologies for the past and trying to explain what this person was about to tell me. She went on to tell me that she has prophetic dreams every now and then. And I completely believe that because I’ve had a few myself. God can work in any kind of way.
She first asked me what I was doing 3 months ago. What was I doing? I was getting ready to leave for Africa in 9 days. (She had had the dream about 3 months ago) She then went on to tell me that she should have called me right after she had the dream but couldn’t work up the nerve. And honestly, her timing couldn’t have been more perfect. If she was to of called me 3 months ago, I honestly probably would of thought she was crazy, because I was about to leave for a missions trip. I was in the “will of God”. So yes, your timing couldn’t have been more perfect. After she began to pour out this dream to me I literally began to sob. She went on to lay out everything I had been struggling with the past 3 months, and told me that God didn’t want me to worry about those things anymore. She also told me that whatever I do for the Lord, Its going to be so anointed it will be over flowing. After we were done talking I asked her to send me an email about the dream. And she so kindly did. So here is the email…
“Okay so I won't do the whole spill on my dream. I'll start at the church service. There was some kind of revival thing going on at a church and we both ended up there. The spirit was really moving and people were going out into the aisles and... well, being Pentecostal haha. You and another girl went to the alter and grabbed these vials (they were empty). The first girl started praying and said "when I pour out this vial it will turn into blood." I watched as water poured out and as soon as it hit the floor blood went everywhere. Then you came up to me, which was kinda toward the back and said "when I pour out this vial it will turn into oil." You poured out the vial and water, just like the other, came out and turned into oil when it hit the floor. The oil ran so close to me that I had to stand up on the pew. At the same time though as soon as it hit the floor I started speaking in tongues. I couldn't control it...I don't think I've ever spoke in tongues with as much force as I was there. From that moment I couldn't focus on anything but what I was speaking.
I woke up and had been crying. I was in awe of my dream because it was so random (the parts before) but yet had so much power. Over the next couple of days I started searching and seeking out what things meant. Blood and oil are powerful in general but when God speaks to you using them.. it's another amazement! When I was speaking in tongues I kept saying "Malachi" which translates into God's messenger. I read the book of Malachi thinking there was something in there... and I did find some but then I realized that I was searching to hard... I was the messenger!
3 months later as I'm praying, you came to me. I wasn't even praying about the dream. I had the dream interpreted and I had learned for myself, so I thought. The dream wasn't just to tell me that I had the gift of dreaming...The dream had to confirm that so I could give God's message to you. I knew that I dreamed like this but never for someone else. Especially someone like you with our past. God has a crazy way of working, but yet it's so divine!!
I know this may have been scatter brained. It's a lot harder to type it out into words. That doesn't change the meaning for you. I'm glad I followed His word even though I fought with him first about it haha! You are SO beyond blessed and God is going to use you Brandi. It may be now or in 5 yrs.. maybe 10, but you have a call on your life and he gave me that to confirm what you already know. You knew you were called, but you were doubting. Idk if you asked for confirmation but you got it and that's awesome! It makes me smile just thinking about the way He works!!”
(She didn’t write it in the email but oil in the bible represented God’s anointing or His “Holy Spirit”)
It was so crazy to me because this was the MOST unlikely person I could have ever imagined getting a confirmation from. But ya see, I believe God did it this way because he knew we both had to get that bitterness out of our hearts. And there was nothing we could have said to each other to make anything OK. But after this long talk, every ill feeling toward this person was literally washed away. Every hurt, every ounce of bitterness, was suddenly gone. I am still just dumbfounded at this. I don’t know why we act so surprised when God “shows off” like this. But I just can’t help it. He knew I doubted and He fixed it, simple as that. God confirmed 2 callings in the dream. One for me and one for her.
Here’s to you: You will probably honestly never know the depth of that dream, what God orchestrated or why He did it. I don’t know why God picked you to help me. But I just want to say thank you for listening the heart of God. Thank you for reaching out to me. I know if I was in your shoes I never could have done it. But you stepped out and reached out, and you’ll never know how much it meant to me. I was really struggling, and you had no idea. Yet, you helped me more than I ever imagined. That’s why all of this is still so crazy to me. Please continue listening to God’s heart. I can only imagine where your walk will take you with dreams like that! J Thanks again.
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